The move caught up with me in unexpected ways. I put my thoughts into words and gave myself permission to grieve and also take action. The first indication came a few weeks ago during worship service while singing a new chorus “I shall not want.” Several lines into the song I read “Deliver me from fear of being lonely.” Tears began to form. What? I’m with family every day. Why the fear? Why the feeling of loneliness?
Over the next days I identified the cause. I missed other family members and my friends left in Terre Haute and Brazil, IN. I also knew that I had to depend on their coming to see me. I could not make the trip there. But the action I could take would be to connect in other ways – writing and phoning. Then we received a surprise call and visit from a dear friend who spent several hours with us. He did not come to Indy because he had an appointment; his purpose was to come and see us.
A text message today brought a request for prayer support. Connection came here not only from a true friend but also with my God as I took time to pray as she gave her gift back to God in music ministry. What sweet communion I had in prayer – not only for my friend but reminding me that I needed to spend more time in prayer, to be more consistent in fellowship with my True Friend.
Also this morning in worship we sang again that same chorus. This time a sweet closure came with the closing: “When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want.” There is where I belong and where God meets me and brings pleasure. Thanks be to God.
Ann Coker 